Wow its been a while!

Wow!! It has been a while. I will try to do better at this. I am been writing in my journal every night since November and i think that is my problem. I am going to aim to do better on my blog. A lot has happened the last few months! My husband came home, I had a baby, my husband went back now we are just living life. The birth of Jackson was great. I couldn't have asked for a better birth.We miss Phillip everyday. I am glad to be able to video chat with him almost every day. It is awesome for him to see Jackson ever day too. He has changed so much. Tomorrow is his 2 month check up. I cant believe he is almost two months old. Every day he does something new. I am so happy he is getting out of the slug stage. I love when he smiles at me. His smile brightens my day. He is waking up about 2 times a night to eat. He is a quick eater. He will eat then burp then go back to sleep. He has had gas and acid reflex. I feel so bad for him, when i know he is hurting. I give him his medication regularly. I don't like when my baby is cranky. I am feeling great. I am doing crunches and squats every day. I have 7 more pounds to loose! I gained 40 lbs in my pregnancy. By far the last ten lbs are the hardest. Phillip is doing good. He misses us a lot. I know he cant wait to come home. We finally made it to the half way point.... It is all down hill from here. Or at least that is what everyone says. I am hitting the 6 month rut. I feel like this is never going to end. I hope to get out of this rut soon. I am trying to keep busy with school and being a mom. It is working some days. No matter how busy i am during the day, I always remember at night. Nights are the worst. I miss him laying next to me in bed. I miss cuddling with my husband. I miss just being able to touch him when ever i wanted. I miss being able to call him whenever i wanted. This deployment has been the hardest thing i have ever had to do. Having a baby just makes it harder. I am so glad my husband is getting out of the military. I don't want to do this again. Three deployments is enough. He has done his time for is country. I am ready for the next chapter in our life. Anyways I am going to stop complaining. Not that anyone reads this blog. I will get on here and write more soon!